Thursday, January 13, 2011

I'm Still Here

I'm still here... just buried with work.  I dislike not being able to keep up with EVERYTHING, including my blog!

I never set out to be a career woman.  I work because I need money...enjoy shopping just a little bit :)  However, I started working for this small company a few years ago and our business is simply thriving. Seems like we've hit a point where we just can't keep up.  We are hiring more people and I'm expanding my responsibilities!  It's all very exciting, but not for my personal life.  I'm at the stage where all I can think about is what I need to do for work and end up working a lot of my evenings at home as well.  I love my job so it isn't work that I dread but I cannot keep functioning like this.  I think when I feel lost of unsure I throw myself into something I feel secure or confident in...thus, my job is becoming my life! 

Since I don't have children and am not involved in a lot of miscellaneous activities it is easy for me to become obsessed (that might be a little strong) with my work and what my clients need.  I take it personal.  I go to bed thinking about what I need to handle when I wake up.  As soon as I wake up I check my emails.  Maybe I enjoy feeling like my clients need me.  Apparently I need to feel important :)

Saying all of that to say... I'm working on some balance in my life right now.  It's rough when you don't feel like you can keep up or meet up to what people expect of you - or even what you expect of yourself.  I'm a bit of a perfectionist and am learning that living one crisis away from a mini breakdown (slightly exaggerated) is not how I want to live my life.

I seriously feel like I need a vacation.  Yes, that would mean leaving work alone and not just working off-site.  Unfortunately, a house remodel (and more work to do on the house as soon as the weather warms up) doesn't leave a lot of extra money to jet off to tropical places :)  I'm been so thankful to at least have overtime hours/$ to help with extra expenses so I will not even whine about that.  However... that explains a little about my absence.  I'm crashing on my weekends and not finding the time during the week days to concentrate on many fun things - my blog.  I miss it though and intend to get some new posts up ASAP!!

Enough about me!
How have you all been?????

9 comments:

Kelli Brewer said...

What line of work are you in?

Mindy said...

I was just thinking of you this morning and wondering where you were. :) Glad work is going well for you but it does sound like a break is much needed.

Peggy B. said...

Was wondering if you were ok, since it has been so quiet on here lately.

amy kelinda said...

It's totally understandable that you've been busy with work. It sounds hectic, though, so I do hope that you get to slow down and take a breather soon!!

Jenni said...

You have been one busy girl!!! Hope you can find a way to make it all work for you. You and your hubby should get away for just one night...pick a big city close by you and do the bidding on priceline to get a great deal on a hotel...even getting away for 24 hours might help you clear your head and relax. HUGS!

Janella Thompson said...

I agree with Jenni! I hope you can find your balance. I am trying to find balance on a total other end of the spectrum. I love reading your blog..and just so you know you have been the one to inspire me to blog more and be brave enough to post my decor ideas. :)

Sharra said...

Please don't work yourself to death, we need you and your blog:)

Peggy said...

Hey you! I think perhaps we have the same brain! I have a very similar personality Leah - throw myself into it- all or or nothing. It's great your recognize you need more balance, and at this point in your life when you don't have children, it can be a blessing like you mentioned for extra income and such. Just remember to take care of you!! I'm sure your company values all you do!

The Salisburys said...

Thinking of you:)