Saturday, October 16, 2010

Being Real

I sometimes come out to create a post and want to make sure it sounds ok to anyone that might possibly stop by my blog or I worry about how I come across.  You know what... that is not truthfully showing you my life... aka, 'Leah's Life'.  My life is full of complete randomness and disorder right now... has been like this since we started working on The House!  I'm overwhelmed one second and laughing/crying (it varies) the next.

While I was out of town last weekend, my husband sent me a picture of our guest room.  I could have sworn it was actually a room from that show, Hoarders: Buried Alive.  No... it was in MY house!  I have been sorting and packing and this room has ended up as our 'catch all'.  And by all, I mean I have literally been throwing everything I don't have time to deal with in this room!  I am craving an organized and orderly life right now! =)

We got home from working on the house one night (9 PM) this week and I realized I was hungry and had not eaten anything all day.  Since my schedule (husband - ha!) does not allow time for grocery shopping lately our supper options were LIMITED.  I found some grape juice in the fridge and then made peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.  I had to use hamburger buns 'cause that was the only bread we had.  Ah... improvising... it was a delicious supper regardless! =)  Most days I am surviving on caffeine and carry-out... I am losing weight and have never felt so unhealthy in all of my life!

My husband went out to check our mailbox the other day and sent me a picture of about 12 inches of mail.  Most of that (thankfully) was magazines, but it's even the little things (like checking mail) that I can't even remember to do lately!  My mind is completely gone or only remembers useless information. 

I've been coming home from working on the house (around 9 PM or so) to get my laptop and putting in a few more hours of work (for my paying job).  It's a cycle that is about to put me over the edge!

It's a good thing I have a lot of clothes because laundry gets done once a week, if that.  I use to work on it every evening when I came home so that I could keep on top of it.  Ha... now I just try to make sure we actually have a towel to dry off with after showers.  Although it might be a hand towel!

I could go on forever... I'm laughing as I type this because that's just where I am right now.  Know that I'm not complaining... just getting my feelings out =)  I have so much to look forward to in the coming months... vacation is a MUST and relaxing evenings will be a priority this winter!!!

So how's that for being real?  Welcome to my chaos... now back to regularly scheduled posting where I try to act like I have things together! =)


Peggy B. said...
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Tee said...

This too shall pass, sweet sista. It's nice to read bloggers who don't pretend to have it altogether, all the time.

Your little yellow house is adorable!

The Salisburys said...

You know I get tired of worrying about everyone so I have decided I am not anymore!:) WAY TO GO! I will be so glad when you are able to finish your house! Let me know when/if I can help with anything! You must stay home all winter and put your feet up every night! I miss you!:) and Nae Nae too!

Kristina said...

I love your chaos!!! Don't stop with it!!! =)

Regi said...

Yes life can be crazy sometimes. Mine seems to be on an extended 'crazy' jaunt. Working two jobs (paying ones), being a mommy to Rylee and a pastor's wife can be very overwhelming. I am very glad to have a wonderful hubby who helps out with the house quite a bit, otherwise I think I would really have a melt down.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there, girl. With God's help and accepting help from friends, you will make it! You guys have taken on a BIG job. You are almost done and soon to be able to enjoy all the work! Praying for you today and everyday!

Jenny said...

Completely understand about living in chaos! So there, still! I had a girl from church tell me it seemed like I always had it together. I laughed! Yeah right! My house looks like a bomb went off and until all the work is done I just wear a hard hat. ;)

triciathomas said...

I have been there before when life seems completely out of control!!! Just know it will pass! I find this post refreshing and not complaining at all!!

Madi's Mama said...

Enjoyed this post...not that your life is in chaos, but cause we love you...all of you! And it is good to know how things are really going and to see your heart!
Can't wait to see the finished house and wish we were there to help.

Jessica said...

I hope things settle down for you soon. I've been there too when life is so busy you don't have time for yourself. Hang in there, it will pass and get much better soon. :)

Janella Thompson said...

I am so there with you. I know the feeling of putting on a smile and thinking I have to pretend my life is together when you feel your being pulled 1,000 directions at once. I am learning to try to totaly be myself...even if myself is not as neat and and in order as I think people think I should be. (hope you followed all that)and one day when I am old and have an empty nest and the best thing I have is to just open the mail or my e-mail...i will wish for the chaos again. I have to remember life is great to me and I am blessed. Thank you for being honest...can NOT wait to see your house!!!!